poop

hey boys and girls. lots of bad ju ju going on today which led to me leaving the house as soon as i got up and just now getting back and falling into bed. it also led to our amazing adopted family taking awesome care of us. i love those guys. so no cleaning, no goal, no nothing. just a really desperate need for sleep. see you tomorrow.

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Okay lets just start right out and say that I am in a pissy mood. EVERYTHING is pushing my buttons and definitely not in a good way. Its making life rather difficult at the moment. Just being pissy is making me pissy cause I can't figure out why I am or how to get rid of it and that just leads to a big nasty circle. Ugh.

On the bright side I pretty much accomplished my goal. I did my morning routine. I forgot one thing but I figure its really not a shootable offense. I think I have also pretty much covered all the same things from my evening ritual as I did last night. Progress. Of a sorts. I also packed a couple of boxes but then I got so annoyed that I stopped all of that. Once again...Ugh.

So for tomorrow I'm not making any goals. Its bad of me but I'm just so peeved right now that the thought of doing anythings makes me wanna gag. UGH

Victory-ish

Day 2! Again....Hee Hee. Oh well. So I acheived a reasonable amount of victory. But once again life got in the way. I got home and was just getting settled in when I found out I had to go somewhere. Sigh....So I went and by the time I got back home and fed the landlord's dogs it was kinda late and I was (and am still) full of all kinds of thoughts flying and/or screaming through my head and it just wasn't majorly condusive to getting much accomplished. Wasn't that an incredibly long winded line of BS? Oh well...It is actually true. But it just seems like a long line of excuses. That's okay. I'm back to baby steps. And affirmations. I CAN DO THIS (without going stark raving mad that is, well more so than I already am.) So I kinda sorta maybe mostly accomplished my goal for yesterday, which in case you forgot was to do my evening routine. The problem being that on my list is to clean the sink. CRAP MUFFINS. The whole point of doing the evening list was so I didn't have to face cleaning the sink. Which is pretty stupid since it is literally the very first thing you're supposed to do in the book. Grrrr. So needless to say that that didn't happen. Also I have on there to scoop out the cat box. You know it seems to me that always within a day or two we are back to the subject of poop. Well, unfortunately for me (and my poor kitty who puts up with me way more than I deserve) I have been pretty lax in the litter box duties. Which actually reads "The litter box is totally gross and I would have to actually empty out the whole darn thing for it to be scoopable." Which of course leads to it NOT happening. I do have at least a step in the right direction in that I have new litter. There have been several times where I have emptied and cleaned the box only to find I have no litter to put back into it. Alway annoying. I did though go above and beyond my goal in that I folded and put away pretty much all of 2 loads of laundry. I still have some stuff to hang up and the massive pile of UnderRoos to deal with (yay! the return of the UnderRoos!) but for the most part it is done. GO ME!

So that leads me to tomorrow. I am going to aim for my morning schedule since I don't have to get up early. I am also going to be optimistic and say I'm gonna do the sink but that just might lead us down the road of dissapointment. Which leads me to one of my favorite quotes.
"I never fail. I just succeed at things that don't work well."

I'M BACK!!!!!

Avid Readers! I'm Back! Now is where you burst into uncontrollable sobbing showing how much you have been anxiously awaiting the return of my blog. (If not true at least tell me you are, a girl needs to feel needed after all!) My hiatus took a bit longer than I intended but the show took pretty much my soul (or all my sleep and energy and time, but really whats the difference?) and it took me till about now to recover it. With that said I miss the show like crazy. It was such an amazing experience that I can't wait for the next one.

Ok, enough of that. So the good news is that I'm back. The bad news is that whereas before my house was a mess, now my house looks like an earthquake rolled through, sprinkles of a tornado or two and top with an explosion and you have the gist. Its making it incredibly difficult to get started (remember how much trouble I had before and now its even worse???? What am I gonna do??) I can say very definitively that sink is NOT clean. I know in the book you're supposed to take everything out of the sink and put it on the counter (or actually clean it but that's gonna take WAY too much effort) but there isn't even any room on the counter to take things out of the sink. SIGH!

This leaves me with my sink not clean, my routines, down the tube and a serious lack of motivation on my part. Couple that with packing and some really emotional stuff going on and I feel like the cleaning Gods are smiting me. But I will get there, slowly but surely right? Baby steps and all that. A renewal of my life changing through cleaning thesis. Wish me luck.

So my goal for tomorrow. Is to make it through my evening routine. I'm gonna try for the morning one but it's been a real hard thing to wake up in the morning so its not real likely to happen with the whole lack of motivation thing. Plus if I don't do it now it gives me a goal for another day. So hello one and all! I missed you so!

MIC..C U Real Soon, KEY...Y becuase we like u!

Okay, so I'm trying to do much better at taking care of myself (especially when I find myself taking on too much and burning out.) This tends to happen quite frequently seeing as the word "NO" doesn't exist well in my vocabulary. So I have made the hard decision to take a bit of a hiatus from my blog. At least until the show is over. I pretty much have work and or rehearsal (or both) everyday from here on out and I'm getting on average about an hour of time to be home before 10:00pm. So I feel like at this point I'm not moving forward and not telling you anything new. Just listing the few cleaning things I might have done that day. Now this doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying to get some cleaning in, and I'm gonna keep up with my routines, and definitely try to sneak some exercise in there somewhere. I am going to do my best to keep up with what I've got so that I can be rip roarin and ready to go just as soon as the show is done. So I will try to check in or blog if something good happens. But at this point, expect silence from my end. Stick with me though guys ok? Your support has really been amazing and helped me move along in this whole process!

Ummmmm......

Okay! I made progress today. I also realized there's bit of non-progress going on in that I'm not sure I know where the book is. Which is going to make it quite difficult to really move forward in this whole endeavor. I do have to take off on a random side tangent and agree with my Auntie, who thinks that I should take my blog on the road with music and singing and prop sinks and vacuums and things. I think it could be big! Okay, back to the real world. I FOLDED THE LAUNDRY!!! This is the point where someone throws ticker tape (somewhere not in my house so I don't have to clean it up) and bands play and girls twirl batons in small skirts. Fantastic! *Sidenote: how cool would that be if that happened when you accomplished a goal?* The down side, I totally forgot about the sink. I did get on a bit of a tangent which was good. I folded that laundry and did a whole other load of laundry (that is of course sitting around waiting to be folded) I took all of the other laundry and put it in baskets to be washed. I even took you-know-who's empty baskets into the bedroom so he could put them in a proper place (i.e. NOT the middle of the living room.) I also put away a couple of storage containers, finished off my costume, loaded up all the little bags of trash into one big bag, and scooped out the cat poop. Oh ya, I also went on a banzai attack mission on the flower bed outside. It started out innocently enough with me watering my tomatoes (I'm trying to grow something on purpose here, and even something edible....WISH ME LUCK!) and while I was doing this I noticed the poor little plants that were dieing in their teeny pots that needed to go in bigger pots. Which led me to look over to where our poor rhody was being completely and utterly taken over by blackberries and some sort of vine. I got pissed and started ripping things out with abandon. Which is all fine and dandy for our rhody. Not so fine and dandy for the giant pile of weeds literally in the middle of the walk way to the front door (I didn't know what to do with them!) And really truly all of the proceeding stuff pales in comparison to my major shocking accomplishment. Dun dun duuuuuunnnnnnn!

I took an Ikea bag (you know those giant blue ones that you could probably fit, not one, but two small children in?) chock full of clothes to the thrift store to sell them. YAY! Sorta. Because even though I called them and told them that I was bringing a HUGE bag of clothes and they said I could and that they would take them. When I got there they said no. And that I had to make an appointment for a different day. But they would gladly take 15 items. BLAH! So the giant bag of clothes is out of the house! (Hallelujah! Its been sitting in the bedroom for probably a year now, slowly collecting more and more) But now it is infesting my car with clutter, but only till next Friday. I can handle that, right?

So that was my day in cleaning! My goal for tomorrow is to fold that load of laundry and find the book. May the force be with me!

Hello again!

Woo hoo! I have a new follower (bout darn time seestor of mine lol) Well, if anyone missed me last night besides Lizz, I apologize for my absence. For the first time I completely spaced out. Like out of my brain, totally forgot. I got home after being at work for 9 hours and then a "holy crap the show starts in like 2 weeks and we have scenes we've never done before" rehearsal and got home around 9 somethingish. And I thought to myself hmm, I should write my blog even though I did absolutely no cleaning, none of my work out stuff, and I think I totally forgot all my routine stuff. Then I saw that my hun was working on the computer. And it wasn't one of those doodling around looking at random stuff kinda working on the computers. It was an actual doing updates and scanning for viruses, or some such other technical type things that pretty much elude me. So I figured I would get around to it whenever he was finished. (Now here is where I confess to being really lazy, because we have 2 other completely functional and totally usable computers that I could have just as easily used as the one he was working on.) So then I crawled into bed and completely and totally spaced out the fact that I had anything else I was gonna do. So, therefor, blog absence. But you know what they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder. (Are you fonder yet?)

I do have to say that I am a little happy about the fact that I didn't write last night because it gave me something to write about today. I have to say that for the next couple weeks or so I may not have a lot to say. I will continue to work 40 hours a week and then almost every night go straight to rehearsals. And in the midst of all of that I have to finish my costumes.(You really would think that at some point along the line I would realize that I cannot handle working, being in a production, and doing costumes for said production. But I'm a glutton for punishment. Plus it gives me a great say in what I am forced to wear) So my day off was for the most part spent completing one costume. It is about 95% done and the rest should pretty much take me about 15 minutes tomorrow. This makes me happy! =) I did though stick to my sewing/cleaning rule. I threw away all the little threads I cut off, all the pins went back in their tines, and everything else is folded up and in one neat pile. Yay me! So that was my day. No cleaning involved. There's not alot of costuming I can do for tomorrow so hopefully I will get more cleaning done.

Goal for tomorrow: It's two parter. I'm gonna fold that damn laundry if it kills me. Also I am going to scrub my kitchen sink. It is NOT clean and I don't like it. I think a big part of that is the fact that I can't figure out where all the little random stuff that is in there came from. Oh well, best to probably NOT know. Chao!