Hello?

I feel as though I may have lost you. Is anyone out there? It may just be my current mood but it feels like no one is out there, that I have lost my mojo. Oh well, probably just insecurities. So needless to say (since you can all clearly hear my deep sighs and see my red blotchy face) I am in a crappy mood. My life seems to be in this major downward spiral. Maybe I'm being overly dramatic, but it sure seems that way. It seems like things were going reasonably well, kinda hopping on the cleaning band wagon, things evening out at work, yada yada... and now it feels as though it is all down the pooper. Pooper. *It made me feel slightly better to think Pooper* So on the cleaning front there really hasn't been much progress. Most of my routine stuff has flown out the window, I haven't read anymore of the book, and I'm pretty sure that my sink isn't clean. CRAP MUFFINS. Now I did scrub my tub and my bathroom sink this evening but it was for purely selfish reasons. After having a major crying jag in which I couldn't seem to actually STOP crying (I figure this is where some sympathetic soul is thinking, oh how long has it been since you cried? you just need to let it all out...the answer: YESTERDAY. it's been kinda a tough couple o'days.) So I figured that I would pamper myself a little bit, which is technically from the book right? You can't accomplish anything without taking care of yourself. No running on empty, that kinda thing. I scrubbed the tub (and the sink since it was right there and the soap already had Clorox on it) grabbed a bunch of candles and read my book. It helped a bit (I stopped crying at least) but I've been having a hard time throwing off the blues. Hopefully it will get better tomorrow. Now I figure this is the part in the story where I learn the life altering lesson and we all live happily ever after....ppppppppppbbbbssssssssttttt (by the way, feel free to comment with how you would spell the sound a raspberry makes.) Anyways. I figure there is a lesson here. All this stuff is life happening, its gonna continue to happen. It is not always going to be good and smooth running. And this is where you triumph and overcome by continuing the baby steps and the routines and all the little things that keep your house clean. Ok, got the idea. Now I gotta work on the follow through.

Alright goal for tomorrow. I'm gonna keep it kinda small so that I can make it happen and have something to feel good about. I am going to do both my morning and evening routine in their entirety. If I happen to get around to folding that laundry from a couple days ago....all the better.